I walked on very wobbly legs my first year in Ithaca, carrying with me only a blank sheet of paper to write my new story on. It’s been about two and a half years since then and my new story wrote itself, one character after another. It began building a castle of stories that included experiences that I had dreamed of my whole life! From wine tastings, to a cruise to the Bahamas, to intimate parties with my best friends, long bike rides, and a job I had so much fun at. The story weaved itself, day after day, until all the details were put in place. Fr the first time in my life I had the sensation of being full. I wasn’t hungry anymore! I arrived in Ithaca starving but am now completely satisfied. I have received so much love! I have also given so much. Some good friends saved my life. I saved other people’s lives. Without knowing it, my circles were still painting themselves around me.
I didn’t discover a new way to paint like I had thought I would. I discovered a new way to be, and the rest happened on it’s own.
Then my good friends encouraged me to have an art show so they could come buy art. I waited for the right time, set a date and committed to the show just for them. Then I invited a few more people, and then a few others, with the intention to keep it under the public radar so as to not attract attention I wasn’t ready for. I also didn’t want anyone to feel uninvited, so I stayed secretive about it.
It was so nice to see some of my favorite people on earth show up with their shiny faces! And they loved my show! Spotlight attention was a very new experience and I think I was a nervous wreck, but I was in good hands–and in good hearts. I had painted 20 pieces for this show and 15 sold. Right after the show I went to a bar with a group of later-comer friends and was so high I didn’t need the booze!
The next day I celebrated by buying myself a 16oz cup of Gimme Coffee and a walk in the early morning. Then I sat down to write thank you notes to everyone. Every piece of art that was sold was a baby that went to a good home.